I have lost myself
the day I sat down my pen
and told It I would not be writing anymore
It could not understand what it had done
although I told It
again and again
that it were not the one to blame for our unfortunate departure
(in terms of friendship)
that all good things come to an end
and so mediocre things must end also
if ending is what’s cool these days
for the Good to want to do it
It expressed to me in the simplest of language
(though colloquial and so not that simple at all)
that it did not want me to go
We had good times, It said
Great times, even
We have laughed and cried
and have made others laugh and cry as well
and that says something
We were good together you and I, It said
Why do we have to say goodbye?
And I made fun of It for rhyming
we don’t usually do that you see
And so I sat It down even closer
and told It the truth
I’m not done writing really, I said
(though how I wish that were the truth)
I have merely taken up typing
I have to be with the times you see
Nothing printed can be published anymore
and printing is all we know how to do
and yes signatures are important
but they don’t really count
It cried and cried
It’s blue ink somehow smearing onto everything I own
and I let it
for one day I found my pen had dried up
and without too much guilt
I threw it away
ran to my keyboard
and wrote this